Behind Closed Doors

Chapter 61

Brian grabbed Sasha's wrist in an attempt to keep her from leaving. "Wait Sasha. I'm sorry. Please don't leave."

Sasha felt tears stinging her eyes. "I have too go Brian. I can't stay."

Brian pulled Sasha back into his arms. He stroked her back. "Shh…don't cry Sawsh. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you or to put any pressure on you. I just…"

"Brian, please." Sasha interrupted him. "This has nothing to do with you. I know it sounds cliché but I have to leave because of me, not you."

"It has been so long Sawsh. I'm sorry. I was over eager. Please don't leave. Nothing is going to happen unless you want it to." He hugged her tightly.

Sasha shook her head. "Please don't apologize Brian. You didn't do anything wrong. I just…I need to leave before I lose control and do something we might both regret. I'm sorry." She said breaking out of his embrace.

Brian let go of her wrist. "I'm sorry Sasha. I shouldn't have asked you to dance with me. I knew when I did, that I would want more and that wasn't fair to you." He explained. "Please don't be mad at me."

"I'm not mad at you Brian." Sasha replied. She tried to hold back her tears but she realized she was fighting a losing battle. "The truth is, I want to stay with you tonight. I like the way it feels to be held in your arms. I feel so safe." She admitted. "But if I do stay, I know what is going to happen and that is just not something I can allow to happen, no matter how much I want to be with you."

"You want to be with me?" Brian asked, rather surprised at her statement. "You mean you want to make love with me?"

Sasha nodded slowly. "Yes." She whispered. "But I can't." She closed her eyes. "I just can't."

Brian took her hand in his. "Why Sasha? I mean if you want to, then why not stay?"


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